The End of Days


Not too long ago, I think I read something about a cult emerging from the cave they were hiding due to stench from corpse rotting in the same cave they sought refuge from the predicted doom’s day on 27th April 2008. I rolled my eyes in disgust that there are actually some idiots believed in such thing and have simple minds that, they think by staying in the cave would keep them alive.

When I was little, imagine, a little girl at age 7, having insomnia because the Sunday School teachers planted a fear in us that, the end of the world is near. I cried myself to sleep every night thinking of my ah poh, ah mah, papa and mama rotting in hell because they are not believers of Christ.

I embarked on a fierce mission to convert my parents, relatives and siblings to believing in Christ because I want them to have eternal life. My burning passion was being jeered at as an unhealthy obsession. It took me years to realize that, probably I can never be good enough and probably, I was not even guaranteed a place in heaven.

I started to take matters more lightly and never have I ever felt so liberated in my life. I was practically living in fear and hopelessness during my adolescent years, no thanks to the bad approach from the church to instill such great fear in a child.

I know there is no explanation on how God works. With all due respect, I would not question the work of God. I know He does exists, it’s just that I don’t think we all should be overly concern on what He does because we will NEVER understand. I have given up entirely the need to understand Him. And I believe all religions only teach their disciples to be good. Problems only arise when people misinterpreted the teachings in any religion in accordance to their greed and in order to benefit themselves.

The recent earthquake and catastrophes brought about many doomsday soothsayers on how the catastrophes happened. Some blamed it on karma, some blamed the Olympics mascots, some were harping on their mistakes for not taking the Lee Bai’s poem written 1,000 years ago predicting the earthquake seriously, some even came up with a list of coming disasters circulating over the internet.

In my layman’s understanding, I do feel the world is coming to an end. The abuse of mother nature’s resources should not be taken lightly. Wastage of water, soils, endless pollution, poaching of animals that otherwise would act as a balance in our world ecosystem, human evolution that caused even more problems to the world – sometimes, it does make one wonder whether evolution is a good thing or otherwise.

Ah.. these are things can cause severe cerebral damages if I keep on thinking about them. Meanwhile, I guess, as long as we play our parts right – minimize wastages whenever we can, use a fan instead of an air conditioner, donate money to victims (this is the best we can do), pray for those who are suffering and lend a hand to people who needs them; I think we are good enough.

If all these fail to make some merit points in order to get to heaven (if it does exists, that is), we could always join our other friends for BBQ in hell.